We were at church Saturday night and the speaker spoke about struggling which was a very good topic for us currently. Then he want to read out of Judges 6 & 7 about Gideon and his plight. It was a good topic, but I think I would have preferred other references of how God helps us through struggles, especially in the New Testament. Here is why…
I personally find the Old Testament depressing. There is so much hurt, destruction, multiple wives, ect. I am not saying it isn’t important because it is our foundation that our Christianity is based on. It is our history so we can’t ignore it… but I still tend to find it overly depressing. I think it is because they had no Hope, like we have. We have Jesus who died on the cross and forgave our sins (no matter the sin). We don’t have to give sacrifices for our sins… all we have to do is pray for forgiveness and it is given to us because of Jesus.
I landed up reading ahead a bit and read about Ruth… she was kinda cool and I do like that story. We read these stories and just look at them as stories, but they actually happened… these people we read about when through all of this. I can’t even imagine Joseph and all the things he had to go through… makes me appreciate my life… granted we have hope, no matter what we can pray to Jesus and there is peace.
It has been a rough few days. Yesterday I fluctuated between happy and depressed, which is annoying in one hand, but good for my food intake because when I get stressed, I stop eating. Hopefully I loose a few pounds during all this LOL. It has hard to see what will happen when rent is due in just over a week. What are we going to do? What about the other bills that are just starting to pile up a bit (nothing to major yet). I try to not think about it, but when it is quiet and there is nothing occupying my mind… that is where it goes. It is why I am watching lots of tv currently (and applying for lots of jobs). I keep praying and I know we are blessed to have HOPE… we know that God/Jesus will take care of us and that something will work out. We both will find the jobs we need to find and we can settle down into a routine again.
Tomorrow I get to do some bookkeeping for a client, so at least that will keep my mind occupied for awhile. There is nothing like being surrounded by numbers to ease one’s mind. My stomach is in knots a lot these days and I hope that goes away soon. It makes enjoying food a little tough LOL. I have to keep praying and looking to God… it is what I keep saying to myself over and over again. I am grateful for worship music, that is for sure. Not sure how I would survive without that.
So here is to another day tomorrow and I am praying that things work out and that God/Jesus will give us peace and we are grateful for our Hope that we have.
