Doug posted a “note” on facebook a few days ago, and this is my view of his note…
I will follow my hubbies dreams where ever it leads. I know he would do the same for me if I had such grand dreams. I want him to be happy (and joyful) and if moving to some crazy fishing village is what brings him joy, I will go along. Actually the sound of it was kind of intriguing, so I am always game to try something new these days…but I have to say I was surprised at the feelings it brought up when we realized we might actually have a chance at this job.
As most of you know, a few years ago we had the opportunity to move to Mexico for our dream job. We applied for the job, went to two interviews and then found out we got the job, and so the new employers paid for our trip (around $1000) to Mexico to bring some of our stuff over already and just check out the place. The first couple day’s there, we were told some of the duties of our job will be, etc. Then on the third day we noticed a change in attitude and we were summoned to the table and where told that we weren’t going to be staying and that they really hadn’t said we got the job. I informed them that I have the emails that says otherwise. Our hearts fell apart for just a moment. That feeling will never leave me…I try to push it away, but it all came up again this week. How does one explain that feeling? I will try… just imagine you walking along and suddenly a hole appears and you just fall…you feel like the world just fell right apart with no notice. So when we found out about this new job, all those fears came right back as if it just happened yesterday. We landed up not getting the job and it was nothing like Mexico because it would have been here in BC and it was a legal job, but still, those feelings came back. Doug and I try not to talk about our Mexico fiasco much to anyone anymore because who wants to hear our woe’s, but occasionally we bring it up between the two of us. It is always just in the back of our minds I guess. I do look forward to the day when we can forget about it completely…wonder if that will ever happen.
I am ok with the “no” as it means I get to live close to my parents for awhile yet. Who knows what our future holds though because I don’t see us living in the Fraser Valley forever. I do hope our job situation does get better soon and then maybe we won’t be always looking to move somewhere brighter and better.
Work is going ok, but I could use more clients. The client that I had that was going to be a bunch of hours didn’t pan out well. She want back on her word and didn’t give me as many hours as she said she would. I landed up quitting with her because she just wasn’t trust worthy and I need to trust my clients. Doug is still looking for work as his job at London Drugs isn’t treating him so well. Can’t believe what people expect out of their employees for minimum wage.
It is just about Halloween and our house is decorated and soon those decorations will come down and then the Christmas decorations will come up…my fav time of year… I love Christmas and no matter how crummy our life is, I will enjoy all the lights and decorations that is Christmas. In a few weeks we head to Tofino with the family…yup my favourite place in the world…a 4 hour drive to sit by the ocean and do nothing…hmmmm…can’t I do that home? HA HA HA. It is a family thing and we go because the family likes it and thankfully there is wifi there so I can still be in touch with the real world. Also I can do scrapbooking on my computer so if nothing else, I can scrapbook by the ocean (can’t I do that here too? LOL). Then in January we are going to Disneyworld and a Disney cruise…sure hope we have some money by then otherwise we are dumpster diving at a Disney resort AGAIN!!!.
I am trying to make this blog a little lighter since my last few were very heavy. Our feelings haven’t changed much, but so far we haven’t wrapped ourselves around a tree and we are alive and kicking. We went for a drive in our car today with the top down…we just needed to drive around in our car that brings us so much joy. The car likes it that it is so loved LOL.
So looking on the bright side…we are alive (is that a good thing?), we have a convertible Mustang that loves us, we have a crazy cat that brings us hours of enjoyment, we live close to the ocean, we have vacations planned (yes I am calling Tofino a vacation LOL), and Christmas is coming up soon and so I can decorate our house like it was a big present LOL. We can only look on the bright side because we have Jesus in our lives…what an awesome friend we have in Jesus.