I think we are in week 4 of Doug’s back issue. He has been doing well with his percocet which has been helping with pain management. It has addicting side effects, but since it is the only thing that is helping, I guess we stick with that. We finally got to see a doctor (Chiropractor) and he has started Doug on Low Intensity Laser Treatment. His regular doctor is back next Monday, and I think he is going to get an earful on how bad this has all gone for Doug. If it wasn’t for the Chiropractor, he would have nobody telling him how to get this fixed. With all this going on in our lives and the extra drug costs, our bank account is looking thin (darn). I can’t pick up any other clients because I am making sure that Doug is managing at his job. Thankfully the clients that I do have are flexible and I can make it work around our schedule, but I just don’t have the energy either to do any more work.
I got someone to clean our house a few weeks ago and tomorrow I have a personal care aid coming in to help me a bit with some cooking and even some company. I will talk to her about coming in regularly for cleaning and some other things though. We can’t afford to go out as much, but I don’t have the energy to cook, so something has to give LOL. I rented Doug a wheelchair so that has helped him get around a bit, but boy is it heavy and it only fits into the back seat of the car, so I have to lift it up. Good thing the weather has been nice though, because it only fits back there if the top is down. Hopefully I don’t need to get a hitch to cart around a wheel chair LOL
Last week our home group supplied meals which was really nice. This week I have managed with some of those leftovers. Not sure what will happen for next week, but maybe I will get dinners organized and have someone cook them for me (or she can do the dishes LOL). I am getting a good rate from my client (Comfort Keepers), so it might be worth having her come in a few times a week for awhile.
We go on vacation next month. I have a wheelchair ordered for the cruise and we just have to figure out if Doug can manage the flights. I think the rest he should be ok with even if it means taking a bit more drugs to help him manage his pain. We can’t wait to do the Panama Canal cruise and I am looking forward to having someone do a lot of the work for me. I am thinking there will be no ziplining for Doug though.
Through all this, I have never blamed God for this. We live in a world of sin, and this is all a part of it. God/Jesus provides us the peace to manage through it all. I have very little emotion left at the end of the day, but I know that I am very much loved by God and that he holds me in his arms throughout the day. I am so very grateful for that and the peace that he gives me to manage through all this.
I am also very grateful for the people who have helped physically supporting us right now as that is what we need the most. My parents are the best and they are the greatest support out there. Thanks to everyone in our bible study group who helped when I sent out a call. My friend Conny has been wonderful in her advise (she is a nurse) and someone to visit with when I need a break from life. At one of my clients (Comfort Keepers) the office staff has been wonderful to me in all their support. They all understand where I am coming from, which has been great. There have been many others that have helped us in advise and prayers… thank you so much. Right now I need people who I can touch… the ones that can either help out or just come over and visit and take my mind off of all the things that needs to be done. I love Doug very much but sometimes I need to see someone other than his sexy face ;) If I get to that point, sometimes I just go downstairs and visit with my friend Anica who runs the market there. I love people watching and visiting with her. She has become a great friend to the two of us.
So goodbye for now… if you come to White Rock you might see a red head pushing the beach bum (not blond right now) in a wheel chair. They will be smiling because if everything else crashes in the world, we still have our ocean front condo and our convertible Mustang.
